My first Australian Tax Return
Yeap it's that time of the year and I am attempting to complete and lodge my tax form before the expiry date .. yikes!!! Well, I have procrastinated long enough.. haha.. It is slightly different than the form back home, so I need to really sit down and read the guide booklet. Which is not what I am doing at the moment- I am reading the guide book while writing this and watching TV.. haha.. talking about multi-tasking!! Ohh.... the guide says that if you engage a tax agent to lodge your tax return, you can claim the fee charged to you - now isn't that great! Ok more pages to read. I guess I will return to my reading and complete this later :-)
Sunday 30 September 2007
Saturday 29 September 2007
Tonight..
Psst..I went gambling at Burswood Casino :-) There were lot's of people there, I think it's like that every night. Probably some people are there every night, seasoned gamblers :-) Some played big, some played small. Me? I played small .. haha.. not being a cheapskate, but hey money is hard to come by ;-) Anyway, I played the Mr Cashman machine and won some money too, not much. I think I put in $4 and got $8 back. Not bad for a first timer. I didn't make big bets, Mr Cashman was only 2 cents per game so when I put in $2 I got to play many games. I did get many free games though. Played another machine, but don't remember the name coz I lost some money there.. hehe.. The trick is, apparently, to make big bets then the winning would be big too! Well, that's only logical isn't it? All in all, I changed $20 and got back $7, so it was OK. Anyway, not a bad try at gambling, though I don't see it as something I would do as a pastime :-)
pssst... As a club member, coffee/tea is free so even if you don't win, you still get free beverage!!!
Psst..I went gambling at Burswood Casino :-) There were lot's of people there, I think it's like that every night. Probably some people are there every night, seasoned gamblers :-) Some played big, some played small. Me? I played small .. haha.. not being a cheapskate, but hey money is hard to come by ;-) Anyway, I played the Mr Cashman machine and won some money too, not much. I think I put in $4 and got $8 back. Not bad for a first timer. I didn't make big bets, Mr Cashman was only 2 cents per game so when I put in $2 I got to play many games. I did get many free games though. Played another machine, but don't remember the name coz I lost some money there.. hehe.. The trick is, apparently, to make big bets then the winning would be big too! Well, that's only logical isn't it? All in all, I changed $20 and got back $7, so it was OK. Anyway, not a bad try at gambling, though I don't see it as something I would do as a pastime :-)
pssst... As a club member, coffee/tea is free so even if you don't win, you still get free beverage!!!
Thursday 27 September 2007
Deep within a forest, at the summit of a volcano, exists an extraordinary world—a world where something else is possible. A world called Varekai....
And so the story began, and what an amazing 2 hour entertainment it was, where audiences were brought into a world of sounds and colours. The costumes were fabulous, the sound system was pretty amazing for a show in a tent. The acrobatic movements were out of this world. I wish I could take some pics and show you all, but unfortunately it is not allowed :-( The only complaint is that the seats were not very comfortable..haha.. and you don't really know what they were singing about. I thought that they were using french, but my friend said it was actually gibberish! haha.. BUt there were bits and pieces of logical language, like 'sorry mate' or 'la lune' .. :-) There were also merchandise for sale, and of course they were expensive. The cheapest would be the key ring, but I didn't get any. Perhaps I will just keep the ticket :-) Not cheap too, $89!! BUT.. I would recommend it to anyone who hasn't indulged himself in this kaleidoscopic world of colours populated by magical creatures. It is indeed a show worth watching.
Varekei
And so the story began, and what an amazing 2 hour entertainment it was, where audiences were brought into a world of sounds and colours. The costumes were fabulous, the sound system was pretty amazing for a show in a tent. The acrobatic movements were out of this world. I wish I could take some pics and show you all, but unfortunately it is not allowed :-( The only complaint is that the seats were not very comfortable..haha.. and you don't really know what they were singing about. I thought that they were using french, but my friend said it was actually gibberish! haha.. BUt there were bits and pieces of logical language, like 'sorry mate' or 'la lune' .. :-) There were also merchandise for sale, and of course they were expensive. The cheapest would be the key ring, but I didn't get any. Perhaps I will just keep the ticket :-) Not cheap too, $89!! BUT.. I would recommend it to anyone who hasn't indulged himself in this kaleidoscopic world of colours populated by magical creatures. It is indeed a show worth watching.
VarekeiMonday 24 September 2007
Sunday 23 September 2007
It's been a beautiful weekend. Took a walk down the river yesterday and it was beautiful. Water was calm and captivating. It was very therapeutic, listening to the silent waters. From the park I could see many boats on the river, a man kayaking. At the restaurant, guests were arriving for a wedding dinner. At the park, there were people sitting down reading, kids on their bicycle, men playing footy, people walking their dog. I also took a walk down Mathilda Bay, and it was as beautiful as ever. There were not that many people there, perhaps there would be more today. Being in Mathilda Bay brought back many sweet memories, one I will cherish forever.
The water, the boats, the people - it was good. Spring is indeed here.
The water, the boats, the people - it was good. Spring is indeed here.
Friday 21 September 2007
Dilemma...dilemma...
When you are a late starter like me (in this country I mean), how do you ensure that you have enough saved up by the time you retire. I guess it's a good thing that the retirement age is 65, at least I still have about 25 years of working life. When you have a job, the advice is 'Invest in super'.Question is, would I be able to accumulate enough super to guarantee a good retirement? And with the dream of owning a car, a house and still have enough to ensure a good and comfortable retirement, it doesn't look as if it will be a comfortable 25 years. .. yikes!!In the booming state of WA the cost of housing is atrocious. An average price for a 2 bedroom house is about $300 odd thousand, while the price of a unit is more expensive. You could still find a townhouse for $290 000 in suburbs such as Glendalough, which is not too bad considering the location. But if you want to buy a bigger house, then you are looking at houses ranging $400k - 1/2 mil. Disheartening isn't it?? But still, with the reserve bank threatening interest rate rise every couple of months, it doesn't give one a pretty good assurance that owning a house is affordable, let alone desirable. Then there's the strata fees and council fees, the insurance - the bills are just endless. For an average income earner like myself, just the thought of it is enough to make me scared. I mean how could I afford a $300 000 + house??? Is it possible? The first step would be to save a down payment. Then find a housing loan with the best interest rate. An alternative to that would be to rent. A smart person would say if you could own, why rent? Which is true. Put the rent money into a house and at the end of the day you will have a house. But then again, $380 000 is a lot of money! I want a house with a patio, so that I could sit on my patio sipping my coffee and watching the sun goes down. It would be great if it were by the sea, then I could enjoy the sound of the waves and the beautiful sea. For that I have just upgraded my dream house to 1/2 mil $$$!!!! Ok, ok... maybe a small house with a patio :-) I suppose if one wants it enough one will find a way. If one job is not enough, then find a part time job, or two. Or find a job that pays more :-) So perhaps in the next 25 years I won't have a very comfortable life, I won't be able to go anywhere I want, buy whatever I want, and it's OK. Life is meant to be challenging, and we are meant to face them, head on. It won't be easy but it is "do-able" :-)
Orrrrr... if every effort fails and nothing materialises, the last alternative would be - buy lotto everyday and pray fervently that you will win big bucks! Haha...
When you are a late starter like me (in this country I mean), how do you ensure that you have enough saved up by the time you retire. I guess it's a good thing that the retirement age is 65, at least I still have about 25 years of working life. When you have a job, the advice is 'Invest in super'.Question is, would I be able to accumulate enough super to guarantee a good retirement? And with the dream of owning a car, a house and still have enough to ensure a good and comfortable retirement, it doesn't look as if it will be a comfortable 25 years. .. yikes!!In the booming state of WA the cost of housing is atrocious. An average price for a 2 bedroom house is about $300 odd thousand, while the price of a unit is more expensive. You could still find a townhouse for $290 000 in suburbs such as Glendalough, which is not too bad considering the location. But if you want to buy a bigger house, then you are looking at houses ranging $400k - 1/2 mil. Disheartening isn't it?? But still, with the reserve bank threatening interest rate rise every couple of months, it doesn't give one a pretty good assurance that owning a house is affordable, let alone desirable. Then there's the strata fees and council fees, the insurance - the bills are just endless. For an average income earner like myself, just the thought of it is enough to make me scared. I mean how could I afford a $300 000 + house??? Is it possible? The first step would be to save a down payment. Then find a housing loan with the best interest rate. An alternative to that would be to rent. A smart person would say if you could own, why rent? Which is true. Put the rent money into a house and at the end of the day you will have a house. But then again, $380 000 is a lot of money! I want a house with a patio, so that I could sit on my patio sipping my coffee and watching the sun goes down. It would be great if it were by the sea, then I could enjoy the sound of the waves and the beautiful sea. For that I have just upgraded my dream house to 1/2 mil $$$!!!! Ok, ok... maybe a small house with a patio :-) I suppose if one wants it enough one will find a way. If one job is not enough, then find a part time job, or two. Or find a job that pays more :-) So perhaps in the next 25 years I won't have a very comfortable life, I won't be able to go anywhere I want, buy whatever I want, and it's OK. Life is meant to be challenging, and we are meant to face them, head on. It won't be easy but it is "do-able" :-)
Orrrrr... if every effort fails and nothing materialises, the last alternative would be - buy lotto everyday and pray fervently that you will win big bucks! Haha...
Thursday 20 September 2007
I am sitting here watching Ghost Whisperer with a pillow over my eyes!! It's kinda scary especially with the sound effect, but I am watching it anyway. The thing about a horror movie is that you always know something scary is coming on the screen when you hear the very dramatic music. Like whenever Melinda Gordon is going to see a ghost there is always that music cue.. I guess sound effects plays an important part in every movie, just like it is always raining in a sad scene. What is that word again?? Ahh.. settings. Ok, ok, so it's not as scary as the other horror stories but for the faint hearted like me, it is scary enough.. :-)
An eye opener
Today I attended a course on how to spot fraudulent documents. It's been quite some time since I attended a course, I was actually looking forward to it! We looked at the security features on documents such as the passport. You'd be surprised at how easy it is to detect certain security features of a document just by using light. Turn the document at this angle and you can see certain features, turn it another angle and see something else! :-) We also learned to check whether a money note is genuine or not. I used to have cashiers at checkout checking out the RM50 notes I gave using uv light. I wonder if they know what they are looking for..hehe... We also checked out some fraudulent documents, feeling the texture, putting it against the light to see its security features, shining uv lights on it, checking what was there and what was not there. We also learned to detect impostors!! Ahh well..all in all it was fun and very informative, and we all decided that we would go home and check our passport.
Today I attended a course on how to spot fraudulent documents. It's been quite some time since I attended a course, I was actually looking forward to it! We looked at the security features on documents such as the passport. You'd be surprised at how easy it is to detect certain security features of a document just by using light. Turn the document at this angle and you can see certain features, turn it another angle and see something else! :-) We also learned to check whether a money note is genuine or not. I used to have cashiers at checkout checking out the RM50 notes I gave using uv light. I wonder if they know what they are looking for..hehe... We also checked out some fraudulent documents, feeling the texture, putting it against the light to see its security features, shining uv lights on it, checking what was there and what was not there. We also learned to detect impostors!! Ahh well..all in all it was fun and very informative, and we all decided that we would go home and check our passport.
Wednesday 19 September 2007
Question that some women ask part 2 - What do you do after a break-up? ..A popular topic for now, prob coz I am going through one meself :-(
Interesting question. Post break-up - difficult times but not the end of the world. You think of him all the time, you wonder what he was doing, wondering if he is thinking about you, etc etc.. well, you know the drill. Some people deal with it without major drama, some take a much longer time. So, for those of you who can't seem to break away from that helpless lonely feelings after a break-up , here are some tips I found on a website :-) Heheh... not my tips, but they sound reasonable enough, and they do make perfect sense:
Walk out of your heartache, knowing that you have done all that you can do, said all that you can say, and given as much as you could give. If you feel you did your part as best you could, but he or she didn't meet you halfway, then you'll be just fine.
As trite as it may sound, this one bears repeating: find something constructive to do - something that will hold your attention and require you to focus and get interested. Once you've spent a few days (or weeks) indulging the grief, it's time to take a class or maybe join a book group. Find something that gets you out of the house and out of your circular thought process and involves your brain or your creative side. Sometimes you've forgotten who you were before you hooked up with the person you're so sad about now, and you need to wake yourself up a bit and remember that you used to have fun doing things you've forgotten about since then. You've got a brain, go use it for something besides re-running old memories!
Remember those old catch phrases: "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger", "Everything happens for a reason", "There are other fish in the sea" and likewise. When you go through a break up or some other emotionally challenging time in your life, you're actually getting closer to finding true happiness because you are getting to know your true inner self. This may or may not include marriage or romantic relationships... and that is okay, no matter what you do in life.
As simple as this sounds, be clear to yourself that you are actually breaking up. Too often the thoughts of possibly being back together gradually eats at you and destroys your emotional well being. Accept the truth of your situation, and commit to it.
Keep your dignity. Many times, it's our ego that causes the pain; we feel rejected and deceived, embarrassed. We doubt our self worth and adequacy. So what better way to survive this than to not give yourself any more reason to feel ashamed, but instead feel pride in yourself - volunteer, take a class, do things that remind you of your value as a person.
Remember that this pain just has to be survived. It takes a season of time to heal, like a broken arm. You won't die from it, though you may feel like you will for a time. Eventually, though, you will feel better, the pain will lessen, and you will be able to love again.
Don't look for so many distractions from the pain, emptiness, or heartache that you fail to process the emotions adequately. You're supposed to grieve a lost relationship in which you'd invested yourself emotionally. Think about it - what kind of person could just say, "Whatever" and walk away as if nothing had happened? Ride it out - turning to destructive distractions like drugs, alcohol, casual sex, etc. will only make things worse, and can actually prolong the entire grieving process. If you try to hide from the pain, it just waits around the corner and jumps out at you as soon as the temporary relief of your "distraction" wears off. The best and only way to get to the other side of the sadness is to go straight through it with a clear head. Believe it or not, it's the fastest way as well. It won't be long until you do feel better.
If you were the one who got "dumped," avoid the temptation to chase after your ex, ask them questions about what went wrong, and try to "fix" everything. It will only strengthen your ex's resolve to push you away, and will make the breakup much harder and more painful than it needs to be.
So there you go. A few tips to keep you going. I learnt long ago not to drown myself in sorrow, for time does not stop when you are mourning your lost. Mourn you must but after that, move on. You will not capture the time you lost ever again, so don't waste it. A friend told me once that if he doesn't appreciate my love, then why should I bother with him. I think that is fair. I may seem to cope well with my break-up but truth is, it still hurts when I think about it (I wouldn't be human if it doesn't). I am still dazed at what happened but I chose to look forward, grief and all. I have done all I could, and given all I could.
A heartbreak allows both parties to have a breather, to look at what happened from the outside, and decide what is the next step. If it doesn't look good, then move on, look for another.. yeah yeah.. as if it is that easy. If only there is a supermarket selling men eh?? haha... I know it is not easy, I tell myself it is not. Ah well, if there is no luck this lifetime, maybe the next? Hahaha.. hey, gotta have some humour sometimes :-D
Interesting question. Post break-up - difficult times but not the end of the world. You think of him all the time, you wonder what he was doing, wondering if he is thinking about you, etc etc.. well, you know the drill. Some people deal with it without major drama, some take a much longer time. So, for those of you who can't seem to break away from that helpless lonely feelings after a break-up , here are some tips I found on a website :-) Heheh... not my tips, but they sound reasonable enough, and they do make perfect sense:
Walk out of your heartache, knowing that you have done all that you can do, said all that you can say, and given as much as you could give. If you feel you did your part as best you could, but he or she didn't meet you halfway, then you'll be just fine.
As trite as it may sound, this one bears repeating: find something constructive to do - something that will hold your attention and require you to focus and get interested. Once you've spent a few days (or weeks) indulging the grief, it's time to take a class or maybe join a book group. Find something that gets you out of the house and out of your circular thought process and involves your brain or your creative side. Sometimes you've forgotten who you were before you hooked up with the person you're so sad about now, and you need to wake yourself up a bit and remember that you used to have fun doing things you've forgotten about since then. You've got a brain, go use it for something besides re-running old memories!
Remember those old catch phrases: "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger", "Everything happens for a reason", "There are other fish in the sea" and likewise. When you go through a break up or some other emotionally challenging time in your life, you're actually getting closer to finding true happiness because you are getting to know your true inner self. This may or may not include marriage or romantic relationships... and that is okay, no matter what you do in life.
As simple as this sounds, be clear to yourself that you are actually breaking up. Too often the thoughts of possibly being back together gradually eats at you and destroys your emotional well being. Accept the truth of your situation, and commit to it.
Keep your dignity. Many times, it's our ego that causes the pain; we feel rejected and deceived, embarrassed. We doubt our self worth and adequacy. So what better way to survive this than to not give yourself any more reason to feel ashamed, but instead feel pride in yourself - volunteer, take a class, do things that remind you of your value as a person.
Remember that this pain just has to be survived. It takes a season of time to heal, like a broken arm. You won't die from it, though you may feel like you will for a time. Eventually, though, you will feel better, the pain will lessen, and you will be able to love again.
Don't look for so many distractions from the pain, emptiness, or heartache that you fail to process the emotions adequately. You're supposed to grieve a lost relationship in which you'd invested yourself emotionally. Think about it - what kind of person could just say, "Whatever" and walk away as if nothing had happened? Ride it out - turning to destructive distractions like drugs, alcohol, casual sex, etc. will only make things worse, and can actually prolong the entire grieving process. If you try to hide from the pain, it just waits around the corner and jumps out at you as soon as the temporary relief of your "distraction" wears off. The best and only way to get to the other side of the sadness is to go straight through it with a clear head. Believe it or not, it's the fastest way as well. It won't be long until you do feel better.
If you were the one who got "dumped," avoid the temptation to chase after your ex, ask them questions about what went wrong, and try to "fix" everything. It will only strengthen your ex's resolve to push you away, and will make the breakup much harder and more painful than it needs to be.
So there you go. A few tips to keep you going. I learnt long ago not to drown myself in sorrow, for time does not stop when you are mourning your lost. Mourn you must but after that, move on. You will not capture the time you lost ever again, so don't waste it. A friend told me once that if he doesn't appreciate my love, then why should I bother with him. I think that is fair. I may seem to cope well with my break-up but truth is, it still hurts when I think about it (I wouldn't be human if it doesn't). I am still dazed at what happened but I chose to look forward, grief and all. I have done all I could, and given all I could.
A heartbreak allows both parties to have a breather, to look at what happened from the outside, and decide what is the next step. If it doesn't look good, then move on, look for another.. yeah yeah.. as if it is that easy. If only there is a supermarket selling men eh?? haha... I know it is not easy, I tell myself it is not. Ah well, if there is no luck this lifetime, maybe the next? Hahaha.. hey, gotta have some humour sometimes :-D
Tuesday 18 September 2007
This is one the many songs I love to sing. I'd forgotten about this song but somehow tonight it kept playing in my head. First heard it when I was in high school and have loved it since. I think the lyrics are very meaningful and I truly believe that if you lift up all your trials and hopes and fears to the Lord, He will ease our burden. For everything that happens in this life, happens for a reason, and I thank Him for being there with me each and every moment.
Thank You Lord for the trials that come my way
in that way I can grow each day
as I let You lead
and I thank you Lord
for the patience those trials bring
in the process of growing
I can learn to care
But it goes against the way I am
to put my human nature down
and let the spirit take control of all I do
cause when those trials come
my human nature shouts the things to do
and God's soft prompting can be easily ignored
I thank you Lord
with each trial I feel inside
that you're there to help lead and guide
me away from wrong
cause you promised Lord that with ev'ry testing
that your way of escaping
is easier to bear
I thank you Lord
for the vict'ry that growing brings
in surrender of ev'rything
life is so worthwhile
and I thank you Lord that when ev'rything's put in place
out in front I can see your face and it's there you belong
Thank You Lord for the trials that come my way
in that way I can grow each day
as I let You lead
and I thank you Lord
for the patience those trials bring
in the process of growing
I can learn to care
But it goes against the way I am
to put my human nature down
and let the spirit take control of all I do
cause when those trials come
my human nature shouts the things to do
and God's soft prompting can be easily ignored
I thank you Lord
with each trial I feel inside
that you're there to help lead and guide
me away from wrong
cause you promised Lord that with ev'ry testing
that your way of escaping
is easier to bear
I thank you Lord
for the vict'ry that growing brings
in surrender of ev'rything
life is so worthwhile
and I thank you Lord that when ev'rything's put in place
out in front I can see your face and it's there you belong
Today I saw a rainbow in the sky, and I know that everything is just going to be alright. Heartaches, heartbreaks are part and parcel of life. Love is the interaction of two hearts, two minds, two souls. Where one is lost, so is the other. But the best thing about Love is that, though lost, can never be taken away from you. Not even the one who broke your heart.
Love is patient;
love is kind;
love is not envious or boastful or arrogant or rude.
It does not insist on its own way;
it is not irritable or resentful;
it does not rejoice in wrongdoing, but rejoices in the truth.
It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
Love never ends.
(1 Corinthians 13:4-8)
Appreciate Love for it is a Blessing... and it is FREE too!!
Appreciate Love for it is a Blessing... and it is FREE too!!
Friday 14 September 2007
Having a day off today, but not very sure if it's a good thing or not. The reason? Woke up to a gloomy weather (as it always is these day) and now it has turned into a full bloom gale outside. I did manage to get some things done though :-) which was good. I did my laundry and had a hair cut, which was about time I would say, as it has grown long and out of style - yeah, on a bad day, I look terrible.. hahha.. on a good day, it looks just as worse! Anyway, the beauty about having a haircut here is that it is done in less that 1/2 hour (15 mins for mine for I don't have that much hair.. haha) and then you can leave.. Don't have to wait coz they don't blow dry for you. YEP! you leave the salon in wet hair. If you want to have your hair washed and blown dry, then you have to pay more. Which makes me miss the hair salons at home. I used to pay RM15 for a cut, wash and dry. I think it is a good bargain. That is when I go to my hairdresser. If I go the the posh ones at the shopping malls, then I have to fork out at least RM 40, maybe more these days. Here I pay $20 for a cut, $35 extra if I want to blow dry and style!! Ouch!!! That's a lot of money. So, a miser that I am these day, I pay $20 and go home and wash and dry myself :-)
So, what does one do on a day like this? I suppose the best thing to do is to sit home and hibernate, watch a couple of dvds (errrrr... not today coz I didn't get any) and finish reading the book I borrowed. I could always do some spring cleaning - hmmm.. that's a good idea.. perhaps later.. or maybe re-arrange the furniture, though I can't see how else I could arrange the one sofa that I have in this small space... or maybe take out the maths book and so some mathematical problems to keep my brain up to date... hmmmm.... we'll see :-)
So, what does one do on a day like this? I suppose the best thing to do is to sit home and hibernate, watch a couple of dvds (errrrr... not today coz I didn't get any) and finish reading the book I borrowed. I could always do some spring cleaning - hmmm.. that's a good idea.. perhaps later.. or maybe re-arrange the furniture, though I can't see how else I could arrange the one sofa that I have in this small space... or maybe take out the maths book and so some mathematical problems to keep my brain up to date... hmmmm.... we'll see :-)
Wednesday 12 September 2007
Lonely, I'm mister lonely,
I have nobody to call my own;
I used to sing that song when I was younger. It kinda gets to you when you hear it. Being lonely - a very sad and depressing word. The question that has been playing on my mind is 'Can you feel lonely whilst in a relationship?' I mean you feel lonely when you don't have friends. You feel lonely when you don't have someone to love, a boyfriend or a girlfriend I mean. You feel lonely when you can't see beyond today and it gets you down. But then can you get lonely when you do have someone? Can you get lonely when you are with someone? Can you get lonely when you are amongst friends?
I too have my lonely days. I am not perfect. You might see me bubbly and happy all the time, but I do get lonely. Sometimes when I am alone at night, loneliness pays me a visit. I wish I have someone whom I could call and talk to, just chat. I would feel disconnected from the world and it would seem to me that everyone's having fun but me! Everyone has a husband, a wife, a girlfriend,a boyfriend except me! On a bad day when it really gets to me, I do cry (yes, again I am human) Sometimes I would text a few people just to disturb them, but then not everyone likes to be disturb ;-) I was chatting with a friend last night and he told me that he is very lonely these days. I don't know what to say really. How do you cure a lonely heart? Find a mate? Find someone to marry? Do married people never feel lonely? Does marriage keep loneliness away?
Being alone and being lonely are 2 different matters. You can be alone and not lonely, or you can be among people and still feel lonely. The worse is being alone and lonely. That is when you are really down at the dumps. What about feeling lonely whilst in a relationship? Can that happen? I suppose it can. When you are in a relationship but does not feel 100% connected to that person, you feel lonely. You feel as if you are the only person in that relationship, and he just doesn't care. How then will that relationship work? Will you then walk away from that and start anew? Or do you stick around and work through that hurdle, identify why it happens and try something new before giving up altogether? A wise person once said marry a person you love talking with, coz in the end when all things fail, conversation will keep the relationship and love alive.
I have questions in my mind that will still be there tomorrow. There are no guarantees that my life will never be lonely. There are no guarantees that the person I am in a relationship will never feel lonely. I wish I could be like the wildflowers and be happy all the time but then I am only human. I can only hope for the best in any situation and when it does happen, recognise that as something that is out of my control and accept it as it is, and then move on. I could try not to be lonely but everyone gets hit by one time or another in their life. It sucks, but then that is life.
I guess this song sums up how I feel sometimes, I'll sing it to you but then you can't hear me :-)
Lonely Won't Leave Me Alone
Why do I seem to be caught up inside a dream
All my life, it's always been my shadow and me
Over my shoulder there's always a voice somewhere
Saying I never should try to set my heart free
I wish that love would come and take me in her arms
Show me what I've never known.
Where I could hold someone words like right and wrong
Just fade away like yesterday
Lonely won't leave me alone
Lonely won't leave me alone
Why, tell me why, won't even let me fall in love
Oooooh everywhere I go always by my side
Won't even let me fall in love
I try and say I love you but the words won't come through
In my eyes, see all the tears and sad memories
Why can't I start out new and leave that old feeling too far behind
I guess that lonely needs company
Around each bend of road
I'm thinking that in time there will be that rainbow's end
But when I follow those self illusions
I find that it's only lonely and me again
I wish that love would come
And take me home
I have nobody to call my own;
I used to sing that song when I was younger. It kinda gets to you when you hear it. Being lonely - a very sad and depressing word. The question that has been playing on my mind is 'Can you feel lonely whilst in a relationship?' I mean you feel lonely when you don't have friends. You feel lonely when you don't have someone to love, a boyfriend or a girlfriend I mean. You feel lonely when you can't see beyond today and it gets you down. But then can you get lonely when you do have someone? Can you get lonely when you are with someone? Can you get lonely when you are amongst friends?
I too have my lonely days. I am not perfect. You might see me bubbly and happy all the time, but I do get lonely. Sometimes when I am alone at night, loneliness pays me a visit. I wish I have someone whom I could call and talk to, just chat. I would feel disconnected from the world and it would seem to me that everyone's having fun but me! Everyone has a husband, a wife, a girlfriend,a boyfriend except me! On a bad day when it really gets to me, I do cry (yes, again I am human) Sometimes I would text a few people just to disturb them, but then not everyone likes to be disturb ;-) I was chatting with a friend last night and he told me that he is very lonely these days. I don't know what to say really. How do you cure a lonely heart? Find a mate? Find someone to marry? Do married people never feel lonely? Does marriage keep loneliness away?
Being alone and being lonely are 2 different matters. You can be alone and not lonely, or you can be among people and still feel lonely. The worse is being alone and lonely. That is when you are really down at the dumps. What about feeling lonely whilst in a relationship? Can that happen? I suppose it can. When you are in a relationship but does not feel 100% connected to that person, you feel lonely. You feel as if you are the only person in that relationship, and he just doesn't care. How then will that relationship work? Will you then walk away from that and start anew? Or do you stick around and work through that hurdle, identify why it happens and try something new before giving up altogether? A wise person once said marry a person you love talking with, coz in the end when all things fail, conversation will keep the relationship and love alive.
I have questions in my mind that will still be there tomorrow. There are no guarantees that my life will never be lonely. There are no guarantees that the person I am in a relationship will never feel lonely. I wish I could be like the wildflowers and be happy all the time but then I am only human. I can only hope for the best in any situation and when it does happen, recognise that as something that is out of my control and accept it as it is, and then move on. I could try not to be lonely but everyone gets hit by one time or another in their life. It sucks, but then that is life.
I guess this song sums up how I feel sometimes, I'll sing it to you but then you can't hear me :-)
Lonely Won't Leave Me Alone
Why do I seem to be caught up inside a dream
All my life, it's always been my shadow and me
Over my shoulder there's always a voice somewhere
Saying I never should try to set my heart free
I wish that love would come and take me in her arms
Show me what I've never known.
Where I could hold someone words like right and wrong
Just fade away like yesterday
Lonely won't leave me alone
Lonely won't leave me alone
Why, tell me why, won't even let me fall in love
Oooooh everywhere I go always by my side
Won't even let me fall in love
I try and say I love you but the words won't come through
In my eyes, see all the tears and sad memories
Why can't I start out new and leave that old feeling too far behind
I guess that lonely needs company
Around each bend of road
I'm thinking that in time there will be that rainbow's end
But when I follow those self illusions
I find that it's only lonely and me again
I wish that love would come
And take me home
Monday 10 September 2007
Sunday 9 September 2007
Friday 7 September 2007
It was raining hippos today, strong wind and hale. It started with beautiful sunshine and as the day went by, the clouds moved in and soon it was raining and the wind was blowing. From my office window I saw the rain and the wind, it looked pretty scary to be out there. I could hardly see the beautiful Swan River. And I was just plain tired, and wish I could come home and snug into my warm bed. Ahh.. but work wouldn't allow me even time to rest - there were loads and loads of work. Someone came into the office at around 11 am, saw me and asked 'Did you just get up??' I guess I must have looked very tired and disheveled.
Oh.. wait! I can hear the wind blowing outside, and my guess is it is raining too. At times like this I am grateful to be home. At least I can get warm under my blanket. I don't know why but I am still very tired, perhaps an early night?
Oh.. wait! I can hear the wind blowing outside, and my guess is it is raining too. At times like this I am grateful to be home. At least I can get warm under my blanket. I don't know why but I am still very tired, perhaps an early night?
Thursday 6 September 2007
Wednesday 5 September 2007
Ouch!! I just twisted my neck muscle and now I can't turn my head!!! That muscle on my shoulder, when touched is painful, and the more I touch it the more painful it becomes. Now if I want to turn my head, I need to turn my whole body, Oh bugger!! It will take a few days for it to go away - not good, not good at all. Perhaps a good massage will do the work, but ahhh... bugger again!! If only I have someone to give me one. Often time I would say, a kiss will make it well, but then again I have no one to give me a kiss..sigh...ahhh well..
Tuesday 4 September 2007
Looking back..
it has indeed been a great winter. There were lots of planning, anticipating, doing - the best time of my life :-) I do not know what will happen this Spring, more exciting things I hope. Maybe a new venture, maybe a new dream, maybe colour my hair red? Who knows? After all Spring has just begun!! And average me will try and fill it with memories to last a lifetime!
Dare I dream?? :-) Well, it all started with a dream, didn't it??
it has indeed been a great winter. There were lots of planning, anticipating, doing - the best time of my life :-) I do not know what will happen this Spring, more exciting things I hope. Maybe a new venture, maybe a new dream, maybe colour my hair red? Who knows? After all Spring has just begun!! And average me will try and fill it with memories to last a lifetime!
Dare I dream?? :-) Well, it all started with a dream, didn't it??
Monday 3 September 2007
Saturday 1 September 2007
An afternoon at Swan Valley
It's the first day of Spring and Valerie, her nephew and yours truly made a visit to the chocolate factory at Swan Valley and Caversham Whiteman Park. We also stopped by at the honey farm, got pictures of an interesting breed of cattle and on the way back went and did some wine tasting.
It's the first day of Spring and Valerie, her nephew and yours truly made a visit to the chocolate factory at Swan Valley and Caversham Whiteman Park. We also stopped by at the honey farm, got pictures of an interesting breed of cattle and on the way back went and did some wine tasting.
Inside the factory
Interesting cattle on the honey farm
Whiteman Park Train service
Ancient printing machine Taken on the Print Shop window
Dinner at Northbridge
Ancient Cash Till
Dinner at Northbridge
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